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Ok well im 21 years old i am very un attractive. I have been called ugly my whole life and there isnt a single female who would consider dating me. I go to counseling and the counsler says im like a 2 out of 10 his approach was acceptance, how can you accept that when no one can love you? is there anything to do to recieve love i have no family and no friends PERIOD my parents are split up and my mom is dead my dad is who knows where, no one will give me a chance will this ever change that first look someone recieves deters many people away i a m a suffering engineering student about to just join the marines to get shot and killed on the front line cause there is no point of existance if you cant enjoy the most beautifull thing of life wich is love if no one will love me i shouldnt be here? how can i fix this i dont want to hear beauty is only skin deep cause in our society its simpally not i live in the midwest united states should i move are people more accpeting elsewear. i even have a hard time getting jobs because of it I walked in right infront of a nice looking girl both got apps both filled them out and turned them in, I can safly claim i know everything about cars, alot about electrical ive built two habitat houses so i am in a good situation to get a job at menards

2 weeks later that girl was working there

im so upset i cry every day i try to continue to read but i cant i just want to be accpeted