Racial Question for guys?

I'm 15 years old, adopted, and asian. (Yes, I know what you're thinking…you're probably imagining fat kid with slanted eyes and glasses and someone who looks like a super nerd) I'm at a really confused stage, cuz growing up, I always thought that I could grow up to be just like my dad, who is Caucasian. He's everything I want to be…cool, fun, funny, atheletic, smart, 'charming' i guess. I mean he's even good with the female teachers at my school! AND he's the perfect dad..he loves me and always cares about me. He doesnt think I'm dealing with these issues…cuz he knows there are lots of asians in my school and even some teachers are asian so he thinks im fine. But truth is I'm struggling with this alot. You know that great feeling you get when you're a kid and you're in daddy's arms and you know everythings alright and you're gunna grow up to be just like him? But now I know that I can never be anything like him cuz I'm asian and my features are different and the color of my skin is different. From what I know, asians aren't everything he is. I've been on Stormfront too…and I dont know why but alot of the stuff they say do make sense!!!! I have never seen an asian I can look up to…all my role models are white. When you turn on TSN nobodys asian-AMERICAN. I can care less about those from asia. When you turn on tv nobody is asian too. I mean all the asians in my school speak their own language at school and even the american born ones only hang with "their own people". And all my brothers are great at sports and everything. It feels like all my dreams of becoming the person I want to be are crushed cuz I'm born with a different colored skin. Why does god have to be so unfair?? I'm feelings extremely depressed…can anybody out there help me?