People who have had eating disorders?

Soooo I used to have an eating disorder and i cant seem to get past the whole gaining weight issue.
Before i had an eating disorder I was naturally skinny but i still thought i was fat.
But now that i've recovered from bulimia nervosa I've gained a lot of weight in my eyes.
so now i'm no longer skinny, I'm thin.
And to those who have had eating disorders i bet you remember being complimented on being "thin" or "healthy" and considered that as being called fat.
Anyway, how can i become more comfortable in my skin, although i still want to lose weight??
For me accepting my body the way it is, is hard……GAAAHHH its kind of annoying because i can look at other girls who are bigger than me and see the beauty in them but not in me….