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14 Mar
Is it healthy to change who you truly are inside?
These others, are they simply haters?
I can take it, but sometimes it's too much.
I'm doing nothing wrong, and I notice that I fit well into young, hip, environments, like restaurants, the mall, especially where there are a lot of teenagers. And I like being around them. I feel that when I am around them I can take drama, laugh along, etc. Not take judgments seriously.
I guess it's a side I will always carry, 'cause I love to talk, etc. Nothing wrong with that, right?
But anyway, I notice that people may perceive me as conceited, and I am kinda beginning to get annoyed. I mean, I've heard so much to not care what anyone says, but it's beginning to get my last nerve. I feel it when someone is right behind, I'm minding my own business, and they're there hating. Ugh! I mean, no one asked for their opinion, and unless they have something nice to say, back off. I can be friendly, but just don't be ignorant.
Now today I was being nice, I was sending out my love, and I felt good, inside my body, as I sent out this love to the people around me. I've never felt like this before. But right now that I'm here I don't feel like myself, I don't feel like I've gotten that rush I usually get everyday. I actually have a freaking headache. Should I just go with the flow, not think about it too much?
I wanna be nice, and yes, just be free, spirited, 'cause I am, but at the end of the day, I don't want to feel like I am faking it.
I'm a Leo, btw.
Talk to me.
4 Responses for "Is it healthy to change who you truly are inside?"
you ARE faking it. If those people who perceived you as being conceited were wrong, if it didn't strike a nerve with you, you wouldn't care in the least. I had a roommate call me an @sshole once but since I knew I wasn't, I just said "no I'm not" as if he told me I was a fireman or something. It didn't matter to me.It obviously matters to you. Even your terminology. Calling them haters. That's like that Aesop Fable of the Fox and the Grapes. The fox couldn't REACH the grapes, they were too high for him, so he said the grapes were probably sour anyway. (which is where the term "sour grapes" comes from).The people who think you're conceited are the grapes. YOU can't REACH them. You can't convince them you're cool. Somehow they see through you and so your only defense is to say that they're haters. Maybe they're seeing something in you that you can't see yet. You're not ready to acknowledge it. I do notice a lot of self-aggrandizement in your descriptions of your behavior. It's not technically SELF centered. Quite the opposite. I'm not sure you HAVE a SELF yet. Right now, what you have is a rather glib act. It fools you but it doesn't fool the "haters".
Yes it's very healthy and smart, too.
Wherever you go, you will encounter these feelings and these situations. I suggest that you surround yourself with the people and the conditions that you want to create for your life. It sounds like you enjoy being around mature, educated people that appreciate you more, but at the same time you like to "hang out" with younger people and that's where you encounter these feelings of jelousy and hate towards you. You are not going to be a youngster all your life and as you develop these situations will decrease in your life. But there are all kinds of people out there and no matter how old you are you will be confronted by these situations. Now here it goes: You cannot change people…you cannot change the world, but you can change yourself to be able to TOLERATE the adversities and wrong doers in your life. Remember that these people are OUTSIDE of you and there shouldn't be a reason for something external to affect you internally…unless you let them IN you. It is their problem to feel like this, not yours.
changes seem so difficult in your part because you were used to it , bieng yourself is the most important thing as long as you do not hurt others physically and emotionaly .self awareness is also important so that you will know how ,when and what you will start for changes for the betterment of your human relations to other people/
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