I'm jealous of my friend and IT'S EATING ME ALIVE!

Okay, I have this good friend of mine. She's driving me to the edge. She isn't perfect, because there's no such thing as perfect, I know… but she's pretty damn close to it! It makes me want to punch her. I feel HORRIBLE for feeling this way because I shouldn't. She's such a good friend and hasn't ever done anything to me, but she makes me so jealous that I just want to mess up her pretty little face. I'm not proud of this.

Allow me to elaborate on her near perfection-

Her name. This is something really stupid to be concerned about, but her name is REALLY unique and beautiful. I don't want to say it, but it's a great name. My name – I don't want to say it either – is really common and boring.

She has the sweetest personality EVER. This is why I really do hate being mad at her, she's never done one bad thing to me. She's always there for me. She's such a caring and genuine person.

She's SMART. Like, VERY. She's in all AP and honors and is a straight-A student. I predict that she's going to be valedictorian and will get into any university of her choice. Freshman year, she was offered to skip to junior year, but of course said she wanted to take things slow and rejected the offer… RIDICULOUS.

She's really hilarious and says the wittiest things. She has me in tears all the time from laughing. I HATE it. It especially gets me because before I introduced her to my group of friends, I was known as the funny one, now that title's gone to her…

Don't even get me STARTED on her looks! Her eyes are a CRAZY deep blue. You can literally stare at them for hours… it drives me insane. She has long dark hair, hourglass figure, long legs, full lips, killer smile, and SHE DOESN'T EVEN WEAR MAKEUP! Which the guys are really impressed with. Her skin is practically flawless and she's got that classic, beautiful pale skin. She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my WHOLE life, and let me tell you, I've seen A LOT of beautiful girls.

She has an AMAZING style. The kind style I try to put together for myself, but I just don't seem to have the knack for it like she does.

Another one that really gets me… I'm very much into music, and of course she has that over me too.
She can sing. I mean. Really well. Her voice is absolutely INCREDIBLE. She's an amazing pianist and guitarist, and she knows "a bit" of the drums – the instrument I play – and she's better than me! It isn't even her main instrument, she learned it on the side a couple years back when I've been practicing for SEVEN years. She knows all of these amazing bands I've never even heard of and has so much music, and everyone is so impressed by that. People call my music collection impressive until they see hers.

If she wasn't already talented enough, she's athletic and is just naturally good in every sport. No exaggeration. She's like a beast when it comes to sports. I really wish I was good in sports but I am not coordinated at all.

EVERY GUY LIKES HER. OH MY GOD. She already has a boyfriend, who is my long time crush. (She didn't steal him from me, she knew him first and liked him first…). Every guy is hopelessly infatuated with her. And I know quite a few are IN LOVE with her. I'm not even kidding. I know one boy attempted suicide because he couldn't stand not being with her.

She's wealthy, she comes from a very wealthy family. I know this is an extremely shallow thing to be jealous of, and it hardly matters, but I'm still jealous… she has everything I want and didn't even have to work for it. But then, you can really tell she's grateful for everything but isn't attached to any of her things. She isn't materialistic at all despite having everything.

In addition, IN ADDITION, she's a talented writer (editor of the school newspaper), painter, photographer, actress (she was the lead in the play junior year) and she can dance very well.

I know people are going to say she probably has a bad family life… but she doesn't. Really, she doesn't. I know her parents very well, and they're great. Her family is so sweet and she's very close to both of her parents.

It makes me want to cry because she's such a modest person and acts like she's nothing special. I'd prefer it if she acted like she knew she was a big deal because then at least it wouldn't make me feel like even less of a person. She's everything I'm not and doesn't even have to try.

Sorry if that was too much, but I thought I should go into detail before I'm accused of exaggerating. She really is like how I described her: the closest thing to perfection.

I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I try to think about all of my positive traits, but then it feels like nothing when I remember the kind of person she is.

PLEASE help me, the jealousy is eating me alive.