Undecided Question

I felt like I was RAPED in my dream…what could this possibly mean?

In my dream, I was at my new job (somewhere outdoors). I started dating my hot supervisor and gave my virginity to him after he forced himself in me. Everyday after that, when I came to work, he would be waiting out front to greet me. My co-workers smiled with joy and envy. But my heart raced with fear and lust when he smiled back at me and called me "Miss Beauty". The guy in my dream looked very familiar. All I know is that he was young, dark-skinned, and had black curly hair. I felt like someone was really taking my virginity in real life. But when I woke up, I didn't feel anything. I only felt it when sleeping. I felt like someone was raping me. What could this dream possibly mean?