I feel too ugly to want to live…?

I can't stop thinking like this. I often avoid mirrors unless I'm painting on loads of make-up and doing my hair. I'm not going to kill myself…I just need help coping…

I'm 17 and in college….I'm a serious believer in intelligence over beauty, but I can't stop thinking like this…..I'm very active in amnesty international and I participate in other human rights activism, I also volunteer a lot….but whenever I look in the mirror I want to kill myself.

Like I said I'm 17…and I have never been had a boyfriend or even been kissed and I know there is so many more important things, but it still depresses me. I exercise lots and am at healthy weight and have a good skin condition and like I said wear make-up and do my hair….BUT my face just doesnt go together.

I've gone to phsychiatrists and they have said I have depression and put me on pills years ago, but they didn't really affect me in any way. However, therapy did help me develop confidence and social skills and self-esteem, which I have….except for my appearance…

And it's not like I am delusional about my appearance, I have been told many times that I'm ugly….What they say doesn't really bother me (I know they've their own issues) but even if they didn't say anything, I wouldn't be any prettier.

I guess I'm asking how can I get over myself and stop obsessing over my appearance and be happy with my outer appearance….I think my inner (personality) is pretty good (everyone can improve on that until they die) but I still hate looking at myself and I can barely afford college let alone plastic surgery…HELP