Undecided Question

(I am madly in love with my psychiatrist
He's so sexy, nice eyes, sexy nose, soft skin, cute everything, i LOVE shaking his hand
I have thoughts of being with him and fantasizing about him like:

We'd be talking about my issues, then out of the blue he took a ruler and slammed it on the desk and said ENOUGH OF THIS
…………………………. TAKE YOUR MEDICATION

he'd put the medication on his tongue and then I'd have to lick it from his tongue into my mouth Then Well that's really all i can say because it's too graphic

im 33, he's 36 , im nice , he's nice, im shy, he's a little shy but more outgoing. he's got black hair i have brown, he's stern im more sensitive, i dont know much more so I need to find out more information

I just know that he's like seeing a rose on a gloomy day. He is so gentle and caring, sensitive yet stern.

I guess I don't have a major question just
1. Just say he was gay and wanted me, would it be illegal for him to date his patient?
2. He thinks I should start seeing him every other week, now im seeing him weekly, how should i make it so he still wants to see me weekly?
3. is it illegal for me to take a sneak picture of him during my session, i just need to see his face when im away
4. is there a way to tell if a wedding ring is from a guy or a girl? I think he has a wedding ring but not sure if it is one or just any old ring We're both from MASS so we could legally get married and I'd rub the frosting all over his face.

i know this question might be dumb and i probably sound 12 years old but im not im just madly inlove with my psychiatrist Believe me u would too!!! I just wish it was the other way around so no mean answers please!!!!!