Undecided Question

How can i become a girl?

I am 25, male, how can I grow boobs? I've been drinking soy milk, will that help with the breast growth? I was even thinking of taking breast enhancement pills/cream/or gum. Plz help….Ok Im not trolling ok, I just want boobs. Im obsessed with breast and want my own girly boobs. I took phytoestrogens and do breast massages, I for real want fem boobs…Ok and Im obsessed with the female beauty, I even would love fuller lips, soft skin, and longer hair, nice butt. See i had taken breast pills about a yr ago, and now I keep getting hot flashes, and my chest sometimes itches, and I like drinking soy milk. So can I really grow boobs like i want to?