What do you think about the following sentences? Does it flow nicely? Anything I should change or add?

Background info: Amy is responsible for the disappearance of her fiance little sister. Lily was kidnapped at the pier on which at Amy stands.

Amy stood against the railings of the pier, the wind blew harshly against her skin.
In another place, in another time, she would have felt the splendor of the
beauty around her, but not here. This place served as representation and reminder of
her momentary lapse of judgment. A moment in time in which she would never get back and yet she couldn't stay away. She was propelled by both guilt and longing. She wishes for a different set of circumstances, less tragic and life altering. She wished to have turned around a second sooner, or to have been less relaxed when Lily complained about having to constantly hold her hand. She wished she could turn back the hands of the clock for her fiance and his mother, herself, although life has been anything short of tragic. Her life seemed to be a never ending series of tragedies, one right after the other. She would never get use to it.

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