Okay so i have known this boy my entire life, we both were so in love with eachother when we were kids-teen years, i moved away and live semi close now, we started talking recently on the phone and we talked about always loving eachother just neither of us said anything ( and also hes one of those guys if he likes you hes mean to you so very hard to read) so last night after I got home real late I couldnt sleep so we decide to hang out I went to his house and I kissed him bc I always wanted to try it and it was amazing it felt so right and then he hugged me like he has been waiting for this to happen for years so we started going at it then I knew I couldn't go all the way with him bc I didn't want him to think of me in a bad way but we kept kissing and fooled around but nothing bad then he tried to have sex with me but i said i couldn't, and he is one of those guys who always says the wrong things lol but for some reason ive always loved it basically he let me know that he wanted to. Then we just kept kissing and then at one point I sat up and we talked for a bit and he told me loved me but I talked over it the first time cuz i had no clue what to say back then he said I love you, I love your smile. And I replied thank you, and said we should try this and to give it a chance, some points of the night he made it seem like he wanted me just for sex and some points that he just loved me so much still, its hard to read. He didn't call or text all day but neither have I. But I slept over there all night and got up and went home, i cant tell if he wants me or just my body. U c he was one of those guys who was chubby and got skinny and thinks bc he never could have me that he can now bc hes thin, which i dont care if hes thin, skin, or blue even lol i just dont wanna be used and played with. Any advice?