Can you explain my behavior?

So before the New Years, 2009 was a bad year and I was excited for the New Years. I planned to write in my journal, change skincare routine, change my eating habits…etc. So on the first day of new years, I was unable to adapt this new lifestyle becuase I didn't buy my journal yet. I didn't buy new skin care products. I accidently ate something unhealthy so I felt depress and anxious. I thought my new year would be doomed. So then I thought its ok! Its not actually the new year until the first monday of the week! So I was excited, but resorted back to my old habits today. So I'm feeling anxious and depress that I won't change into a new me because I feel to adapt a new lifestyle in the beginning of the new year. Am I being supersitious? Obsessive? Anxious?